This Time of Year I Always Seem to Count my Blessings....

Way back in the depths of the black hole of a depression, in a relationship with a psychopath and only sleeping 4 hrs a night, I looked around for anything that might help me claw my way out of that hell (should have just dumped his ass 5 yrs sooner, would have been much easier, but no learning would have happened!) and up on my newsfeed on FB a friend was starting a 365 days of Gratitude challenge, and I said, yep, I'll do it.  I certainly needed to be able to change the way I was viewing everything and so every day I would post up one sometimes stupid measly thing that I was grateful for and believe me, some of them I struggled to get even the most pathetic thing to report!  But I did it and altho that was about 5 yrs ago now, it was the start of getting my head right, and with those small starts eventually the snow ball effect kicks in and things get better faster and when you're head is in a better place you can make the harder calls, like kicking idiots to touch and moving forward.

But now it's a lot more of a habit to think of, or give conscious mental time to things that I am grateful for.  I don't dwell on the shit things that come up.  Let them happen and wash on by, I honestly would struggle with telling of anything "negative" that happened in 2019, even tho of course, shit did happen!  But it was gone quickly, without lingering and so they are lost in the past.  But I do count my blessings, and as the years go by, those blessings are becoming more and more apparent, I wouldn't say "bigger" necessarily, but certainly there are things happening more and more frequently that make me think to myself "how lucky am I!!!"  Like my awesome neighbours and Hamish from up the road who came to help clean up trees with his tractor.  (Today he was out mowing his lawns so I sent Marcus out with some beers and choccy bickies for him and Marcus came back with the beers because apparently he doesn't drink!  So I'm guessing there is someone else yet to show some gratitude to with beers!  LOL)

Anywho... Xmas becomes that time when I look back at the year and reflect on everything that has been awesome over the year, and things that make me feel lucky, blessed, content, grateful, whatever you want to call it.

There have been times in life when everything has had to be fought for, when you feel like you're going against what the Universe must have planned for you, because shit, surely buying a property shouldn't be this hard!!!  etc etc, but you know what?  This last year, everything has just been falling into place, right down to the tiny little things, that may not seem like a big deal, but they are ALWAYS harder to fit into place than they have been just lately.  It's like all the hard work of getting the mental attitudes sorted are now paying the dividends.  And I guess watching mum rot away in a rest home with her brain disintegrating has made me appreciate a lot more than I ever did before.  Gone is the hoarding mentality that mum taught us so well, now it's LIVE!!!!  Work hard, but bloody well LIVE, you can't take money with you, word hard, play hard!!!!

And life is smoooooooooth, and I am grateful for every bloody thing in my life, and every person who has come into it.  I have fallen in love with my life and I intend to stay there.

Roll on 2020, looking forward to walking with ya xxx

Edit to add.... I go to my emails after posting this and there is a new Note From the Universe that has just arrived...

Life doesn't give folks a break. Nor does it test you. Nor is there any such thing as good luck, fate, or destiny.

On the other hand, Kelley-Anne, your thoughts become things. Which pretty much means you get to rule your world.

Better than winning the lottery, 

  The Universe

Just another LITTLE example of that syncronicity that is all around these days, but all those LITTLE things when viewed as a whole, shows life just flowing, head must finally be doing it right huh?!  :)  

Actually, it all reminds me of my tattoo on my wrist, Zen philosophy in Chinese Calligraphy, says Tao Tzu-yan Li, Tao Wu-Wei.  in it's simplest form it means the Way of Nature's Order, is the Way of Non-forced action... Go with the Flow Primo :)