Merry Christmas and all that....

All done and dusted for another year.  Is rather anti-climactic here with just me and the boy and no Santa involved anymore, no family to visit, was thinking next year we may enter the realms of "service" for Christmas, go help at the soup kitchen or (god bless FB and being able to share these ideas cause there is always gorgeous Brenna who's on the same wavelength but thinks outside the square I'm in) things I hadn't thought of, like the Women's Refuge house or the Salvation Army may know of some people in need.  I love giving at Xmas time, gives me the warm fuzzies, but I'm very aware of not being able to spoil the child so I just don't feel fulfilled at all now LOL.

But then we were surprised by a visit from a Nelsonian going for a Xmas day ride on the bike, shared our fruit salad and icecream and conversation well past midnight, and it was nice to not feel so isolated on what should be a day of sharing love and laughter.  Very cool.

Go to pick up the new ute tomorrow morning, and off to Golden Bay on Sunday.... will park up with the distant cousin I used to tease about being inbred before I knew we were related LOL.  Looking forward to just chilling away from home and giving Marcus someone to do something with and beaches right across the road.  Will feel like a good mummy :)

Wish I could pick up the phone and say Merry Christmas to mum :(  but will see her soon and as much as I shed some tears somedays with her, I will smile and laugh for her and make her do the same and watch her face light up, and remember how much I would recognise her laugh anywhere and remember the better times when I've heard it in the past.  I miss my mumma bear :(

Hope everyone out there is enjoying their down time, or their family time, or their friends time, or their introspection time, or their peaceful time.  Compliments of the season to you as my father would say :)