OK, fast background... over 10 yrs on FB, using it as an online diary, entertaining my friends, posting shit I like to save, thinking that my boy child will have a forever record of his mum's rantings when I fall off the perch, like some other deceased friends whose accounts still exist without them... It was my life, accurate, funny, inspiring, and soaked up waaaaaaaaaay too much of my life. But you know, the Universe has a way of throwing you where you need to be, and I've learned to trust that, which brings me to the sooooooo part...
Sooooooo, here was me with no life but work and FB, and my boarder's son had shifted down here and hey presto all our internet was used up and we dropped to dial up speed (OMG, how did we do ANYTHING when all there was was dial up?!) A day later I sorted a new plan, got my FB back and less than 1/2 an hour later, mid typing a comment, I disappeared!!!!
POOF!
gone....
"Your account has been disabled as ineligible"
So I contacted them and said "hey! Can you check this please? Been with you 10 yrs and am sole admin on a couple of pages, don't really need to be disabled mistakenly! Thanks :) "
They looked and said nah, fuck off, you're ineligible, you're disabled, are not going to justify our decision so we're gonna mention Privacy Laws so we don't have to...
And just like that, 10 yrs of my life is gone, without a trace, like I never existed there at all... That was quite scary in truth, how easily I was erased.
And then I stopped to think about how the hell that could have happened... and you know what I remembered? About 3 days prior I did one of their little surveys that appeared in my newsfeed and at the end where it asked what they could do to make the experience of FB better, I answered honestly.... We had had a "massacre" here in NZ a couple of weeks prior, a white supremacist who went into a mosque (two in fact) and killed 51 people and wounded many more live streaming a vid of it on FB. Well aside from some knee jerk reactions from our Govt. in relation to our gun laws, they put the pressure on FB BIG TIME about removing the vids and started squeezing FB on our radio news about holding THEM accountable for contributing by allowing radical groups on FB and how we would be DEMANDING that FB kick out all white supremacist and hate speech groups. This was followed on the radio national news that other groups were going to DEMAND that FB remove other groups spreading lies and myths in relation to dangers of vaccinations. So, scene set right? I answered in the survey that they needed to be careful if you remove only SOME groups in relation to that but not all, and that they will be seen as puppets to the political powers in the background and that people will see them as curtailing the freedom of speech the entire world likes to lay claim to. Then I suggested that live stream vids have a 5 second delay and get put thru a filter... hey presto, can't be hard LOL.
So that was it... That answer in the survey quite obviously cost me my FB account, because apart from saying "shit" and "fuck" a lot my account was squeaky clean...
And now I have my life back, because FB WAS an addiction and I couldn't put it aside voluntarily, I loved seeing what my friends were doing, love encouraging them, empathising with them when they lose a loved pet or family member. Loved seeing the photos, and sharing mine. So convenient!!! But an addiction nonetheless and it's nice to have it broken.
You know what the kicker is tho? Good lord, the amount of things that happen during the day I automatically think of posting up to share on FB and I can't!!! Stupid little things, but things that my friends would engage in with me, laugh with me, be entertained for a couple of seconds, or minutes, or days if the rambling comments went well, I miss that interaction, I miss sharing my stuff in a place where I can go back and be reminded of things. The amount of funny stuff Marcus has done and said over the years that made it to FB and then would pop up in memories that even I had forgotten had happened, I loved that online diary aspect of it all. I have no dedication to writing in a diary by hand, believe me, I've tried over the years!
So I thought of blogging instead... Really just for me, for Marcus after I'm gone, for anyone that is bored enough to want to read the shit I spout forth LOL.
And I can do it with minimal time input, so I won't be hours and hours and hours cruising thru a newsfeed and reacting to everything :)
So, welcome to my life outside of FB...
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