the stupid things that make kids kids....

The things I used to post to FB so I wouldn't forget them and because lots of my friends there know/knew Marcus and find his actions or words funny...

So today we were driving home from town and Marcus was in one of those moods where if he had a sibling he would be antagonising them till a scrap happened, except without a sibling it happens with me, which is silly cause his ego desperately wants to win but heck I'm an adult and craftier than him by far, so he always gets the twack around the head as we're driving and he really can't retaliate like he really wants too cause I'm his bloody mother AND I'm driving, you just feel his frustration as times LOL.

He had lost this particular round in the battle and had tucked his head under my arm so I couldn't twack him easily at which point I was closed my arm on the top of his head and told him to sniff my pit LMAO, it was just too easy!

When I let him go to a  "I hate you mumma" (which I hear often!) he said "I'm going to put my head out the window" which he did and then he promptly let rip with an almighty spit!!!!!  Except the dork was still looking straight ahead BWAHAHAHAHAHA  nek minit.... he pulls his head straight back in and wipes a very impressive massive spit off his face with his sleeve looking rather sheepish with it.

Oh dear lord, I mustered up as much disdain as I could to save wetting myself and told him he was a right royal dickhead.... I allow the laughter as I'm typing this instead!!!  What a dork!

Funny as hell at times tho LMAO.

Used to love seeing the FB memories come up reminding me of equally stupid things he'd done that I'd shared that I had completely forgotten about!  Won't get any reminders now, all those wee gems gone!  Poof!

Spring has Sprung!!!!

Good God, the years are now FLYING by, and before anyone says it's age, even the school kids are commenting on how fast time is going!!!  I think we really have  been sped up!

Work is FLAT OUT, which is not surprising for this time of year, makes for some decent pay packets thankfully and since I added Calcium and Magnesium to the cocktail of what I take nutritionally my back has never been better!!!  Well, it has... pre driving spreader trucks LOL.  But prior to finding turmeric I was at the point of thinking of other jobs I could do, turmeric saved my job, but now cal/mag has made it enjoyable again!!!  Only thing is, I can't afford to NOT take them, miss one day and the back is screwed again in that time and takes a week to get back to being OK.

Got the Bighorn and float on the road and legal again, just need to start getting on Smokey again too LOL.  Heading up north to see mum again next week so the bike will be clocking over some more kms and the heated grips will get a torture test done on them hahahaha.

Marcus is still a decent human being for the most part, loving this year for bringing that change about in him and in the right light you can see a tiny black smudge on his upper lip hehehehe.  The little boy is growing up!

Cats are all good, Bear the Demon Spawn is coming up 7 mths old, Leo is getting old but a bit of devils claw added to his food has put a little spring in his step again, Vada LOOKS old (he's only 7 but that is already getting on for a Great Dane!) but he's still as loopy as ever, he is feeling the spring rush too, looping around in the paddock like a grey hound at night LMAO.

On the bike this weekend, a bit of a full on weekend actually, tons to do and still no energy to do it.

And that's my life, all caught up on just like that!  Don't know what I used to post on FB every day!!!!

oh yeah, stuff like this....

Procrastination Beaten AGAIN....

FINALLY the bighorn, tow wagon and float are on the road and legal and usable and poor wee Smokey IS gonna get dragged out to some trail rides this season!

Blew a radiator hose pulling the hay in back in December, is just sorted again now LOL.  Just need to grab a new battery from work on Monday for it, tried charging them both twice, but one is still letting the team down, so last thing to do and then to use the damn things and stop the cobwebs from covering them!

I feel so accomplished LOL, it truly is the little things!  And now it's a raining and miserable day so the rest of the weekend will be spent doing sweet F.A. after a BIG week at work (which went surprisingly quickly!)

Vada hasn't had a guts ache in over a week (touches wood super fast!) Roger is grazing across the road in a shit load of grass, and now I just need to book the ferry for the next trip up the North Island next month to see mumma bear.

I sort of feel like my life is getting sorted in small ways.... oh and it may not seem like much, but last pay day my mortgage finally dropped to 5 figures instead of 6 WOOTWOOT, #winningatlife

(seriously, what the fuck are hashtags all about????)

Boredom leads to sleep which leads to...

no longer being stuck in a cycle of only 6 hrs sleep!  First time since the kid has been born I guess!  Sadly I still feel tired during the day too, better look into the thyroid playing up again... always something to keep an eye on LOL.

But within that boredom that leads to just going to bed cause theres nothing else to do, is my life closing off more and more.  Hermit like.  Have my very dear soulmate that reckons he's a hermit, he's fucking deluded!  He has people texting him left right and centre!  Whether he answers them is a different story!  But he has people in his life big time.  And I introduced him to FB where he spends a LOT of his awake time, just being around people in that sense that FB allows you to do.  I'm thinking of canceling my text plan cause it's just a waste of money, that's how little contact I have with people outside of work!

No one to talk to, no one to take an interest in, no one to take an interest in me quite quickly leads to isolation.  Just sleep your life away.  Life becomes the pocket of your backyard and place of work and I have NEVER socialised with workmates.

Plus side of having animals, they start bellyaching loudly if you sleep in too late in weekends, so you have to get up to feed them and while you're up, you might as well do some other stuff.

And I got TWO rides in on the weekend!  Oh yeah!  Just what was needed.  The shit weather didn't really eventuate on Sunday so went for a wee 100km spin for a green tea and to watch the world go by for a while (yep, more isolation even while moving thru the countryside hahaha) and then raced the temp. drop to get home as the clouds just started rolling in.  Good weekend. 

Spring is Broadsiding Round the Corner Towards Us!!!!

It's still light at 6pm, Spring is coming!!!!

Have dehydrated apples in every available container in the house and the fresh ones are nearly run out :(  They were delicious!!!  I'll miss them, but damn the dehydrated ones are gorgeous too!  Can't see the horses getting many of them!

Roger the old skinny TB of a horse has just gone off property for a month or so after finding someone who volunteered some grass to the boarder's mini pony and he needs company LOL.  They've only been home for a few ones since the last jaunt, it's great not having such a demand on my paddock!

Been doing more mechanical stuff on the vehicles, not by choice, but they're all shitting themselves at the same time LMAO.  Little car is ready for a new WOF after I had to do the rear wheel bearings.  Tow wagon finally has it's new radiator hose on, but I'll try charging the batteries one last time before I give up on them and have to replace them, then it and the float can finally get back on the road in time for the Trail Riding season for wee Smokey, and Marcus's wee bike started.... stopped.... wouldn't re start... needing a leaking fuel hose to be replaced, had to take plug out to get it un-flooded, started it again, and it runs like a piece of shit... Gotta now find a diagnosis for that before he grows too much more!  Feels like an air issue... we'll see!

Bear is nearly 6 mths old and still a brat to the other cats, but is my completely spoiled little love heart.

Vada had another very mild gutsache on Friday night but it seemed to pass quite quickly thank god, I guess 7 is getting older for a Great Dane, will have to watch him now!

Haven't been on the bike for 3 weeks now!!!  Good God I need a decent ride, bring on next weekend when I'm childless!!!! 

And that is my life outside of FB... still boring as hell LOL

End of an Era....

10 yrs ago I got a weekend job collecting eggs at a free range farm just up the road, 8 yrs ago I chucked that job in, and over that period when it came cull time for the shed when the moult hit them I would brings some chooks home with me, at one stage we had about 20 of them!!!  Well over the years they have fallen off the perch until there was just one left.  Well over a year ago she was allowed out of the chook pen to free range the backyard with the dogs and the cats.  One day she decided on a weekend morning to come up the stairs, down the hall and jump up on the bed to say gidday LOL.

She hated being touched but she would chat away to me and follow me round the place.

Just over 3 weeks ago she stopped eating for 3 days, comb paled out and she was walking like she was egg bound... three days later she started eating again and while she struggled to walk she was "OK".  Then Vada bowled her over as he spun around at dinner time without looking and she didn't squawk or anything but after that she went a step backwards with walking again.  Think she broke something in there actually.  So I popped her into the big dog crate where she couldn't wander too far, was warm, soft underfoot and food and water near at hand all day long.

This morning I went downstairs to feed the zoo and she didn't talk to me :(  She died over night.  Peaceful looking death at least.  So she is now buried in the backyard, right beside the house and the chicken shit on the stairs to get upstairs will eventually fade away removing the last traces of her and while I hated her trying to roost on the stairs and would punish her and carry her down again, I will certainly miss my old girl.  Rest Easy Phoenix, you will be missed...

yes, that IS a chicken on the bed!

Meanwhile Vada is still not well, although he has moved bowels more than once now and is peeing OK, we went for a walk around the paddock just now and he did all of the above, ate some grass and FINALLY had a drink of water when we got back in... so fingers crossed he is on the mend from god knows what!  He's tucked up sleeping on my bed again, the only place he will actually lie down properly so he can rest (yep, bastard is spoiled rotten!)  So I'm on a day off babysitting him.  Fingers crossed he won't need a vet visit again now... just need to keep him drinking!

Having to be the strong, sensible, sane one without respite....

....SUCKS!!!  The little ego wants to scream out "WHAT ABOUT ME????!!!!!"  Fucking frustrating but there you go, that is dealing with other people huh?  Great learning, but hell, sometimes plain sailing for a wee while would be fucking awesome!  Never mind... that strong core of steel I pride myself on having is being tempered and hardened and strengthened and as long as the emotions don't harden with it, it can't be a bad thing can it?  No longer battered round in life by circumstances or dealing with others needs, just smooth sailing not cause the seas are smooth but because I know the state of the seas doesn't actually affect me sailing on them...

So anyway, it's the middle of the school holidays, Marcus has done a great job of washing trucks down during the week so will chunk off a little bit more of what he owes on his computer.  Bear is now 2 stone lighter *wink wink* love it when you pick them up from the vets and they say "keep them inside tonight, and if it's cold, tomorrow too" yeah, whatever lady, ain't gonna happen!

Vada my darling big black bastard went to visit the vet this morning with a belly ache.  Big dogs like Great Danes can be prone to bloat which can be a death sentence for them and being half as hour out of town I didn't want to risk it, so he has been given the all clear for bloat at this stage, some drugs on board to clean his stomach out and the big bloody softy would only lie down on my bed where he sleeps at night, so that is where we are now, him wrapped up in his mink blanket finally snoozing, me listening to music and thanking god it didn't have to be an after hours vet visit since it is a Sunday LOL.

Rain might have finally stopped for a little while, first sunshine I've seen today is peeking thru the clouds, GOOD dump of rain since last night and warm yesterday and today, grass might be fooled into pinging up out of the dirt!

AND it really IS staying light till later now, 5.50pm and still able to see (just, but see I can!)  Spring is on it's way, half way thru winter WOOTWOOT!!!

Perks of the Job....

Gotta be some right?  Spread an orchard with lime the other day and asked the owner if I could steal some apples off his trees, he said go for it, the contract overseas was filled and they weren't allowed to sell them locally due to copyright of the fruit so extras and those not up to overseas standard are left to rot on the trees or feed the birds!  So with an apple junky horse in mind (and the others and the pig and the kid) I grabbed some and with permission went back on the weekend for some more!  So the dehyrdator is running (yes, I bought it so apple junky Smokey could have apples in the off season LMAO) and I have so many apples I thought I'd juice some too as the kid is a juice junky and I make him water that store bought sickly sweet crap down.  So I've just juiced about 20kg of apples to get 10 litres of juice, 6 in the freezer and 4 in the fridge and the kid admits it tastes so much better than the crap from the supermarket.

I feel content with an abundance of food at my place, don't know why, we never were lacking for food as a kid, but my freezer and pantry and spare cupboards are always stuffed to capacity and now the animals have plenty too :) 

Perks for the boy too, he needed another part time job to get some money after he chucked his paper run in end of last year, and the butcher shop hasn't got space for him right now, so he has scored a job washing down our mini spreader trucks if they need it on the weekend, and since he is cheaper than me and does a MUCH better job than I do I anticipate I can talk the boss into giving him more than they had originally thought.  That job has meant he can replace his laptop that he not only broke but broke only half an hour after windows disappeared off it (how many times do you have to tell a child that viruses are real?!) so we went computer shopping for him after we went apple picking yesterday and he is now paying that off to me (it was an interest free deal, only way I ever pay anything off!) 

A nice productive weekend without doing too much at all LOL.

And last but not least, I would be mentioning how it's now still lightish at 5.45pm instead of 5.30pm but there are no horsey chicks around to appreciate it *sigh*  Nearly half way thru winter already!!!  WOOHOO!!!!

Gotta Mention the Good Things!!!!

The boy child has Aspergers so has struggled all his years to control himself around other kids and not be bossy, not just go on and on an on about stuff that interests only him, and his need to correct people all the time.  All completely normal kid things to do right?  But Aspergers kids don't learn how to filter all that easily so at 13 some of his behaviours are as selfish as an 8yr old, but hey, social behaviour is a learned thing, he just needs more help to actually learn it and apply it.

And having a mother who threw her filter away when she entered the work force as a truckie and was already a foul mouthed, sarcastic bitch, Marcus grew up from before age 5 hanging round the trucking yard hearing all that (and stuff I wish he hadn't heard!!!) from the guys working there.  And then came the bullying at school, particularly when he changed schools for year 4.... So I tried to teach an unfiltered child how to use his words instead of hands, feet and objects, but teaching an 8 yr old (who we didn't realise was on the ASD spectrum then) sarcasm possibly wasn't the best way to go, this child has an incredible wit, but now it's an incredibly dry and sarcastic sense of humour, one that GRATES!!!

So him going off to college this year was a blessing as he was heading into a new school where the majority of kids didn't know him or his buttons they could push, it was the chance at a fresh start for him where he could step out of the role he had found himself pushed into.  Of course, this meant he needed to change the way he interacts and REACTS with other kids, so now that he is taking the school bus to and from school, part of the deal is when he gets home before he jumps on his computer he does some chores, veggies for dinner, vacuuming, or something else and he reads a chapter of 'How to Have Confidence and Power in Dealing With People' (next on the list is 'How to Win Friends and Influence People') and he is really enjoying the book and it's making sense and we talk about which chapter he read when I get home and talk about how he can apply it at school etc.  Well, altho he still manages to push others buttons enough that they hassle him, and learn his buttons enough to get him to react, he is doing a LOT better at school than he did last year, and better this 2nd term than the first term, he's finally maturing a bit!!!

And he's a great wee helper round home now, actually thinking of other people not just himself, I haven't been able to say this much about Marcus thru the years, but he is a real joy to have around and a great help at home now.  Proud of how he is growing up and that book really is helping.

He's also just picked up some work after being allowed to chuck in his paper run at the end of last year, he's cleaning down our spreader trucks at work when we (the drivers) don't have time to get them cleaned down and today was his first day doing that and he took pride in his work and he did a great job, really proud of how he went today too.  My little boy is finally growing up.

Procrastination finally beaten.....

for ONE thing on the list LOL.  Two years ago Marcus and I took 2 bikes to the beach for a hoon.  Unfortunately it all ended in tears when the clutch fucked out on my mudbug, waaaaaaaay down the beach with an incoming tide and having to push the useless thing back to the vehicle.  Well Marcus had a few wee hissy fits trying to get HIS bike up the beach too and it got laid down in the sand a few times while he was having these hissy fits.  Not a good end to what had been a good day, and then the mudbug broke it's stand in the float coming home and crashed over into Marcus's wee bike which had a grinding noise afterwards in the back end, long story short they both got parked up and forgotten for a while.

Then I got a 2nd motor and clutch off Mal, who'd I'd bought the mudbug off (not that I've done the clutch yet!!!) so they were still sitting there.  About a year ago and boy wanted to ride his bike so he pushed it outside, I kicked it over for him, lo and behold it started but it was pissing fuel out the air filter, so it got parked up again and the carbie ripped off it.  A few months later I mentioned it to Jim (who lives round the corner) and he said bring the carbie round, he'd pull it apart and clean it out (figured it had shit from the beach in it LOL) which it did and I've had that carbie back ready to go back on the bike for at least 6 mths.

Well TODAY, I finally put the carbie back on the bike!!!!  (and in the meantime somehow the grinding back end fixed itself hahaha) it kicked straight over once the fuel was there again and the boychild had a great time ripping round the paddock on it.  It was wonderful to watch and by the way his knees are up around his ears I'm wishing I hadn't procrastinated so long and glad I didn't procrastinate any longer!  He's grown like a weed!!!!

And there were two people out there smiling today, and laughing when the whooping and hollering started, and laughing when he pulled up with mud splattered all over his face.  Good thing is it's back on the road so there'll be plenty more fun to be had for the kid again.  Now, to get the clutch on the mudbug done!!!  Good things take time ;)

But Then There Was a Day to be Remembered....

Teacher's Only Day yesterday for Marcus and after having a day off on Wednesday too with the teachers' strikes, I dragged him into work with me for the day.  Ever since he was 4 he's been spending time in the trucks with me, and every day we used to talk about any and all sorts of things then and in the car for 15 mins morning and night going to work/school.  Since he's been at college he's been on the school bus and at 13 is quite capable of having the odd day at home to sleep in and relax instead of having to get up at sparrow's fart to come with me... So Wednesday he got his sleep in and Friday he came with me, and the radio in the truck wasn't working.  We had the BEST conversations about all sorts of things, starting with kids at school, kids damaging things of others, intentionally or not, and that started us on the legalities of actions, what constitutes a criminal act compared to a civil dispute.  This moved on to murder vs manslaughter, assault vs self defense, use of weapons in all of those things and the main ingredient of them all, intent.

We talked about ego and how it drives people to be more always, how it works, how to work with it or around it.  We talked about our old conversations about ashes in teabags and gingerbread men, yeah, I'll put up those stories another day LOL, inheritances, debts, nutrition and the lack of it and so many other tangents.

All that took us thru till about 1pm LOL.

It was great!  At 3pm I left him at work and he trundled off down to the butcher's shop in Renwick to see about a job and grabbed a couple of hours of computer time in the mealroom till I finished up.  A great day had by all :)

Those days, those moments are worth remembering.